A few weeks ago, Josh and I went to hear Salman Rushdie talk about his new memoir, about when his life was in danger because of backlash against The Satanic Verses. “I am not the hero of my own life story,” he said.
I am not the hero of my story. And it’s a good thing that I do not have to be. Today is All Saints’ Day in the Christian tradition. One day a year, I look up from my little life and realize that I am surrounded by a great cloud of witnesses. A saint, someone told me once, is not the hero of her own story. She is an arrow, pointing to God.
As I wrote my story these 31 days, I was amazed at how it was not my story. It was the story of Josh, who refused to listen to me say lies about myself, who was always willing to remind me that I was gifted, I was beautiful, I was loved. The fabulous Bonnie showed up more times than I can count in this story, just like in real life. Jenn was there to bring milkshakes and to gently tell me that something was wrong. The Sermonizers were there to dance on tables, pray and laugh over soup, and pray and help me wedge open the door of heaven. Chuck, the fabulous preaching professor, gave me the Ten Hour Rule and taught me how to preach without a breakdown. SuperTherapist told me to write three things a day and showed me how to lower the stakes.
A saint is never the hero of her own life story. God is the hero. And sometimes God shows up with skin on, to heal. Sometimes God looks like Josh, like Bonnie and Jenn, like those dancing preachers, like my kind-eyed therapist.
Thank you, friends. Thank you for following along these thirty-one days. Thank you for not thinking of me as the Girl Who Got Locked up in the Psych Ward but as Christina. Thank you for reading, encouraging, sharing these posts on Facebook, commenting, and sending me messages. Every day, it seems, someone sent me a message sharing about your own struggle. I’m grateful that you would read, doubly grateful that you would share with me.
For all the saints, I give thanks. I give thanks for you.
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